The Greatness of Our God

I feel like God has been showing me so much the past couple of months that my mind could explode.

First of all, I discovered that one of the main reasons I have a bad day or just plain am in a really bad mood is when I am in the flesh; when my focus is all on me.

As soon as I get the focus off of myself it's like a whole new world!

A couple of months ago a good friend of mine asked me to be her intercessor this year.

At this point in time I was experiencing a very dry season with God and couldn't figure out why I wasn't passionate about reading the Bible or spending time with God. (something I usually desire everyday) So I started to pray for her everyday. That was the beginning of my revelation.

I'm not the best at praying for people. I've always wished I could be one of those great prayer warriors that can pray for hours and hours and it's their prayers that kept someone alive or something like that. But I've never been able to do it consistently. I will get bored 5 min into prayer or run out of things to say or fall asleep. But I was determined to keep my promise to pray for her every day.

I knew it was going to take trying something I hadn't done before if it was really going to happen.

So I started reading scripture out loud over her, changing the tense or a few words here and there to make it apply to her. And I would just go through a book of the Bible picking out verses and praying them (out loud) over her.

As I prayed scripture over her every morning, I began to get more and more passionate about spending time with God. I started to be in a much better mood most days. And I started to become more and more passionate about intercession and learning all I can about what exactly it means.

So I started reading a book called Intercessory Prayer and it has been rocking my world.

I really wish I could explain the change that has taken place in me and in my relationship with God. He feels more real to me now than He ever has before. And the funny thing is, I have hardly prayed for myself at all in the last 2 months. The more I pray for other people, the closer I feel to God. It doesn't make any sense to my brain at all but it's true.

My God time used to be all about me reading the Bible for me and praying for me and what I can get from God and what God can reveal to me.

And theres nothing wrong with having times of that. I think that there are definitely seasons where we need a touch from God and we have to cry out to Him for ourselves before we can fight for anyone else.

But for me, it was time to go deeper, and having God time every morning for myself wasn't cutting it.

I think that if we will just get the focus off of ourselves and fight for the people around us, God will take care of us.

This is the first of many revelations I will try to share...

September is gone, October here we come!

As slow as August felt, September totally flew by. Fall weather has begun to grace us with its presence here in Arkansas. The time for pumpkin spice lattes, hoodies, scarves, and long sleeve is finally here!! :-)

September has been a very good lesson in patience and waiting on the Lord. Trusting that He has me where I am for a reason and that He will provide.

So I have been working two days a week for Ms B at the office of the church, mostly answering phones and doing any random office projects that any of the admin people needed help with.

Then, last week I was asked to be in a meeting with one of the pastors and one of the pastor's assistants. In this meeting they offered me a job part time (for now) with a hope of being full time staff by November. So for this job I am helping the Conway campus Pastor with basically overseeing the facilities and making sure that everything is clean, working, and ready to go for the weekends and then during the weekends making sure that all the guest service people (greeters, ushers, parking team etc) are where they need to be; making sure we have people at every door and such.

Then I have a few other random things that I'll be helping with to take some things off the plates of some other staff that are overwhelmed with way too much to do.

So that was a major answer to prayer and was cool to think about how God set that up because if I had gotten the job at Starbucks like I'd wanted or anywhere else like I'd tried so hard to do, I would not have been able to work for ms B two days a week and would not have been thought of for this position at the church. God is cool. He makes me nervous sometimes, but He's cool.

In other news, another one of my best friends got married two weeks ago at 6 o'clock in the morning on a mountain.

I must be growing up or something because my friends are all getting married and having babies and getting real jobs and it's weird!

Another sign that I'm growing up is realizing that groceries are expensive! I am a "homesponsor" at the Cadre girls house, me and my friend Audra buy some of the food and help keep up the house and such. Groceries are not cheap! Toilet paper is not cheap either! I have never had to buy it so I had no idea.

I'm not so sure I like this part of being a grown up. I am however becoming fairly good at finding things cheap/ finding friends that work places that can give me things for free.

I think that all restaurants should be required to give their leftover food to some kind of organization that will distribute it to people that need it. That would be cool.

I leave for Haiti in one month from today! I'm so pumped! I miss going on missions.

Thank you so much for those of you who have sent in money to support me on this trip. It really means so much to know I have people in my life that believe in me and what I'm doing enough to help in any way they can. I'll definitely send an update when I get back and let you all know how it went!